Obsessions
What's taken over my mind?
What's taken over my body?
What's taken over my sanity?
Where have I gone?
Think, think, think, just one more time.
Do, do, do, just one more time.
It hurts me, it attacks me, it won't let me go.
Has a grip around my head, which gets stronger and stronger, whilst I
get weaker and weaker.
Think, think, think, just one more time.
Do, do, do, just one more time.
Just one more time, just check again.
just one time.
Then another and another and another..........
How can I switch my brain off?
How can I stop this torture?
Let me go.
Let me relax.
Show me a way.
This way and that way, just one more time.
My head is going to explode.
It can't take any more, but it just carries on.
Obsessions, compulsions, the mind is going haywire.
I can't think properly, can't act properly, something else has taken over.
Life carries on
Go around the corner, Take a look around.
Don't be scared at what you see, Just try to carry on.
Go to the bottom of the hill and start to climb.
Be brave and bold and come out of your hole, nobody is going to hurt you
and nobody is going to let you down.
Carry on walking you'll get there soon.
The peak is just ahead.
What's wrong, what's happening?
Why can't I get there?
Why can't I breathe?
Why can't I climb the rest of the way like I started?
Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts
driving me mad!
Where have I gone?
Where is my face?
Where is the respect for myself?
Where is my courage?
Where am I?
I'm going back into my safe, warm, protecting shelter.
A little shelter I once built to help me to survive and to protect myself.
Come on, come on out of there.
Nobody will hurt you.
I can't come out there's too much hurt.
Too much harm, too much noise too much violence.
Death, death death!
It hurts, it always hurts.
I can't take it any longer.
The violence, the anguish, the uncertainty, the screaming, the hell of
it all.
Where are you all? Why is nobody here to help?
Where has my life gone?
Why did you do it and pretend everything was fine?
Why did you bully us?
Why did you hurt us?
Why did you throw us across our rooms?
Why did you ignore us?
Why did you treat us like dirt?
Why did you always lose control?
Why did you never think of later?
Why did you never think of us?
I only ever wanted to be loved.
Come on, climb up this hill.
You haven't got far to go.
Don't stop before you get to the top.
Carry on walking and ignore the paths, which want to take you elsewhere.
You'll make it if you try.
Look at what you left behind and let go.
Don't carry on holding on to things which will only hurt you.
Stop looking for things which used to be there.
Look into the future.
Look into the faces of people who love you who respect you and who need
you.
You don't need to be constantly reassured.
Today you are loved for who you are and not for who you were.
Carry on walking and ignore the thoughts inside your head.
Don't listen and keep your head up high.
They only want to carry on hurting you, to demoralise you, make you hate
yourself, so others can't love you.
It doesn't work though, because your friends still love you.
Only you can't love yourself.
Come on you've nearly made it.
The past doesn't count any more.
Come out of your shelter and feel the sunshine on your skin.
The pure air, the flowers around you, the world as it really is and not
the world that was there so many years ago.
Life is worth living.
Let go and climb to the top of the hill.
Take a look at what you've achieved!
The Doubting Poem
What did they say?
What did they do?
What did they look like?
Have another think,
have another think,
just one more tiny thought.
Was it good or was it bad?
Was it said to please you?
Was it said to hurt you?
Can I believe it?
Can I accept it?
Can I go with it,
was it really meant?
What if they're lying?
What if they're teasing me?
What if they don't mean what they say?
I'll just go round and check if things are alright.
I'll just give them a ring.
I just need to check,
just one more time......
Stop doubting everything, everybody,
not everyone wants to hurt you.
Stop listening to thoughts,
that want to help you protect yourself,
when really they are demoralising you.
What will happen if I change my ways?
What and how will I feel?
What will I think?
What will I do?
Can I start to think differently?
Can I start a different way of life?
Can I believe in myself?
How can I change my ways?
How can I change my life?
How can I make myself believe?
Believe in somebody important - in ME!!!!
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